Life Is A Process
It's been over a year since my partner, and I started building our dream home in Bali. I'm beyond grateful for the trust and love given to execute our vision. (Before and after photos coming soon @villa_serenity_bali ). I wouldn't say that the creative process has been easy, but as with everything else in life, it's a learning process.
After traveling around for so many years, it's a phenomenal feeling to have a place to call home. I sometimes get an overwhelming sense of gratitude and need to pinch myself for how far I've come along and how much I've accomplished. Yet, on the flip side, I can also get a little annoying voice telling me that I haven't done enough.
Yesterday happened to be one of those "judgmental off days." Maybe it's since it's that time of the month, and I happened to slip down my stairs and might have broken a toe. But, even with clear evidence that my body is telling me to slow the fuck down, I still found my inner voice giving me a hard time.
It usually says, "Lauren, you're not working hard enough, and I need to be doing more." So now, during these "judgmental off days," I have two choices. The first choice is to listen to the bullshit story and drown in my played-out self-pity party. Or the second choice is to sit still, quiet my mind and find evidence to negate the limiting belief.
So what happened? Well, at first, it was like a battle of the titans for who controlled the universe, going on 2/22/22, I might add. Then finally, after the smoke cleared, it was over, and I realized that I was exactly where I needed to be and the only one judging me was myself. Ah, deep breath.
What's so interesting about this familiar scene and other ones is it's bound to happen again, but the good news is that it gets easier!!! Once you are conscious of the mind fuck games the ego can play, YOU can choose not to stay stuck in the downward spiral. Of course, it will not change overnight, but practice and a little love go a long way!
Remember, life is a process, and tomorrow is a new day.
Much Love,
Lauren